hi all, my second shift at sanity. im getting the hang of it (i think). i get to do cash register today and put in sales. (while also stocking up, greeting customers and helping them with query) woot. you know how other stores dvd and cds are alreadyy in the case? well sanity dont do that (for some) due to people stealing it and stuff so dvds and cds are kept in a room (labelled alphabetically) and let me tell you, it can be so difficult trying to find the cd and dvd for the case. grrr. so many titles crammed up. but it was fun. and it was shopping night as well and damn the place was quite packed. so many people coming in to buy dvd and cds. ^^ but most customers are really nice. since im a newbie it can be quite daunty and i can be so slow cos im tryna get used to where everything is.

love customers who didnt mind the wait while im tryna find the cds/dvds. wish them a happy future. that the kind of customers everyone should be!

dear wordpress,

today went to livo just to shop! needed to buy black pant for work and guess what? found one for only $10. like what the? how lucky can you get? anyway, just shop and bought cds from jbhifi. avril lavigne (2 cds for $15) and linkin park ($13). then since i didnt want to go home yet, went to livo library and read. love that library. dark and quiet and surrounded by books. my kind of heaven! ^^

home at 4pm. got work tomorrow. cant wait. shopping night as well.

contemporary society exam yesterday was alright. one bad thing was the hall was so damn hot that i find myself losing my concentration. got out of there half an hour early and now all im doing is praying that i pass. met up with susan at the busstop. took bus to livo before training it home. goodluck susan for today exam!

now i have my psych on monday and maths on thursday. and then three months break! yay!

dear wordpress,

back for some news. i dont really want to think about my yesterday exam. its all in the past. before the exam, i went to get something to eat (also the library was getting so noisy that i find it hard to concentrate) and guess who i saw? susan! we chatted for abit about how we are all stressing and nervous over a stupid exam. grrrr.

near 130pm off to our exam room. we all have different rooms depending on your surname. and guess who else i saw? natasha (workmate). she in the same room as me. went in, sat, and did our exam. i finished around half an hour early. because i have nothing to write but also the bus came around 3:01pm so need to catch that.

i write what i can remember but seriously, i think im gonna fail. with a big F

so today, got to uni early as well. it is 930am and another 4 hours till my contemporary society exam start. i like contemporary society so i hope the exam questions will like me too. ^^ well wish me luck people.

and good luck to all my friends who are doing or will be doing their exam soon!

dear wordpress,

another 3 hours till my exam. im currently at uni. didnt drive here but train to livo and then bus it to here. i find it so much better. and i think i will now take public transport instead of driving. we also bought a car. not new. i dont like it. but what can i do? only $2000 and drive okay but i just dont like it.

dad wanted me to drive the car but im so stubborn that i told him im gonna train it instead. which was fine by him (i guess). now im shitting myself over the exam. i wrote everything but i doubt im gonna remember the stupid thing. im not gonna be disappointed if im gonna fail the  unit. because i didnt really study but if there’s a miracle out there, please just let me pass and i will thank you for the rest of the life.

then again why am i stressing? its just an exam, just another exam… 

first day at sanity. really different but fun. so many people come to buy music and dvd. abit confusing on where everything is and the cash register are totally different to the one i used at maccas. but hopefully i will learn everything. overall a pleasant day. then afterwards did some shopping which is a plus! yay for working at westfield where you can go shopping afterwards. and yay for being so close to the station that i dont have to walk a long way to get to. havent really study much. two more days till my exam. should i be stressing out? heck yeah. so what am i doing reading? because im sooo lazy.

bang head. plus our house at the back is done and all we need are the furniture. i decided to reside at the new house, which dad has put a t.v also. ^^ took all my blankets and pillow and just sat on the floor and pretty much read for the whole afternoon. now i should be studying.

dear wordpress,

tried to study but i cant. there so many things distracting me, so many things im worrying about. ii hate exam. why are they doing this to us?

im starting tomorrow. how exciting

dear wordpress,

yesterday was a very hot day. 35 degrees. went with mum to fairfield and cabra at 9am till 12pm.

been tryna study but seriously the second question is so damn confusing. i havent read all the texts and that could be my downfall. ahhh i hate worrying about useless stuff. stuff that shouldnt matter at all. why are all these materialistics things overtaking our life? time are slipping away but time is not real. its just something we form within our mind, something that is created in our society. i should stop worrying about time. i hate deadline, i hate wanting to know what gonna happen next when it never gonna happen. am i making sense?

life is very confusing. so many perspectives. i want to be a tree! i just want to observe things passing by, to see the world around me changing while i stay the same.

my mind is going crazy. if i could i would escape from society. if my fear would just leave me i would run out of this house and go somewhere far far away. if only i wasnt a human who need food and water to survive then i would wander to the end of the universe. but what the point of saying all these when its never gonna happen?

well today was my last day at maccas. kind of sad. everyone was like “you’re actually leaving?” and “is this really your last day?” and “do you have another job? where at?” and “sanity? what sanity?”

start at 6am today. it was alright. busy like always but still fun. we have some really fun people on. and yeah. at 2pm finished my shift! hug everyone, said goodbye! all i need to do is return the uniform.

thanks alot maccas!

well this is it. my last day of uni! one week of break before exam. trying to really study but everytime i try to i get so stress out. i should stop overthinking.

sold the car.

got to uni early! 7am. and because i have no car, dad drove me to uni. then i bus it home. i love busing home. its so relaxing. and the bus’s seat are really really nice and comfy with air con.

its currently 9am. my last tutorial for contemporary society is at 10am. will be getting my essay back. i hope i did well but i wouldnt be getting my hopes up.

if the world is actually ending in 2012. i say good riddance to the world. we are causing so much suffering to mother nature and its about time that she is getting rid of us selfish human race. war, oppression, discrimination, global warming, killing, hunger. we are the cause of it all. we will never learn so i guess its time to end it all.

i would rather start all over again, just to see us all reunite as one. will that ever happen?

it might seem like a depressing thing to say but i really have enough.