kresley cole’s 5th book is finally out! and yes, just received it today by mail. see picture below… *squeal* that is hot hot hot!!! so yeah, cant wait to read it. Also received Midnight Man by Lisa Marie Rice (just realised that the book is a romantic suspense, so scratch what i wrote previously, how i never read suspense because i been reading it all along, by Lisa’s books), Elizabeth Jennings’ “Pursuit” and im loving it… almost finish with that book.
Damn english today. for the in class essay about comparative text i fail!!!! FAIL!!! urghhh. my mind went blank and i for some reason didnt have time to finish it… NOOOO! i think imma suicide now… *cries* i have no idea where i went wrong. probably under pressure? or something but i didnt get to finish it…. .*switch into depressed mode*
Speech tomorrow and im scared shit. hate speech with a passion. of course i havent started it yet… but luckily i found an article before hand and make some little note of what im gonna write and say but now is the time for me to put it all together and actually make a 3 minutes to five minutes speech.
totally hate every subject now. they are all evil!!!!!
recently the weather been very icy cold. hate waking up in the morning. and for some reason i cannot breathe when i try to snuggle back into my not so warm blankie, so i have to get out, shivering.
sometimes you read, watch or hear something that have you qestion things such as what is wrong with this world? what is wrong with this people?
hearing about a woman being locked up for 24 years under her father’s basement and was sexually abuse, you began to think, Is the world going crazy? just reading and re reading of what the father did to his daughter and reading of an event that happened to another woman also, who was kidnapped and locked up for 8 years, it gave the chills down my spine.
is the world safe? are the people becoming insane, wacko or are we corrupting slowly? you began to ask, will this happen to me or my children or anyone i know. I become disgusted and insane after hearing and rereading it over and over again, and you start to wonder what make them tick? To think that people werent aware of what is going on right under their nose you began to feel shock.
so anzac today and all the television channel is filled with anzac stuff… from news to documentary. sigh… nothing to do so went to do my maths work and i finish up two more exercise. “give my self a pat on the back* and for the first time i enjoy doing the work…. haha. maybe cos i finally work out how to do it. of course i still have like 3 or 4 exercise to do but by the time school start i probably be finish and ready to study the four topics that will be tested in week four. *fingers cross that i pass*
then i have english which i am putting it off till later, or when im ready to start thinking and writing. urghh.
not ready for school.
i just realise that i been spending more and more. Is it starting to become an addiction? a craving? even tho i feel relieve after i purchase something, i would crave it for more, like i want more and more. i better stop this craving before i regret it.
so anyway, started on my maths work today. did from exercise 15B to 15C (halfway) then got lazy. haha. well its very confusing and all that. geez, hate logarithms. im gonna fail for sure! integration i can handle but this? whats with the e and the a and all that shibble. gahh. kept going back to the answer after every question, and no idea how i got the answer. the example book is no help at all
so anyway, i just found another two author that will go on my long list of “author books to buy”. Marliss Melton and Suzanne Brockmann. and they both write about Navy SEAL, romantic suspense. never read romantic suspense before so i gave it a go and it was pretty good. read it in one sitting, last night. whew. and i was going for my second book but my eyes was shutting slowly and i couldnt concentrate on the story so i call it for the night.
Anyway, i become really interested in Navy seal, cops and army kinda story. its such so cool to read about those cool guys. haha. yeah, they are just fiction but still…. usually my genres range from contemporary romance, paranormal romance and medieval. so to be reading about suspense is such a different world.
so yesterday went to city. went straight to kinokuniya and yeah, got the books, stayed for an hour then back home. so in love with kinokuniya. havent been to border yet. maybe next week? or next holiday.
well, work at 6pm till 12am and it was so bloody tiring. cars kept coming and most were like crazy and wacko and laugh and talk way too loud. jeebus. why cant they talk normally instead of screaming into the drive thru speaker box thingy. dont they know that i am wearing the damn headset and whatever they say is screaming thru my ears. And i just found out that all the crazy people come out at night to maccas. And most of them are in their teens, having their P’s and acting all cool and stuff. jeez. get a life man.
Anyway, it was pretty boring and tiring and sleepy. my back was aching and all that. This is the last time i am ever doing a night shift. EVER! no wonder i like morning shift. i dont care if i have to wake up at 6am just to work because for the first 2 hours or so is pretty much a bludge.
so tomorrow? well, i been kinda avoiding my work and all that. i make very little progress and we only have 5 days left till school start again. i seriously cant take the stress. I shud stop thinking about the future, like worrying aboutt the uai and how i am doubting myself and all that. i shud be worrying about now! like gettting my work done!!!!!!! so what do i do to get out of reality? i read of course! cos reading get you out of what is now, its like you are in another world, another place, and you know that its not yours.
Right now im tryna do things one by one but having so much work to do i kept on tryna overthink, like multitasking and all that. like i would do my english but get worry about my maths and other subjects when i shud be taking my time and finish it one at a time. I’m abit of perfectionist. If the writing isnt good or the something is not right i would get frustrated and try to do it over again when in fact i shud stick to one plan and kept going with it instead of changing it over and over again.
today work at 10am till 5pm. all good people! yay! seem to fly by very very quickly and i was in a happy mood for some unusual reason. Tomorrow meeting at 5pm, Tuesday work at 6pm-12am, wednesday probably go shopping and buy a new hair straightener. My old one is not heating properly. maybe cos i have it for 3-4 years now. Saw this hair straightener at priceline at only $89 including a hair curler. how cool is that. i want to try and curl my hair. thursday i probably stay home and actually do my work. Just did my english this morning and omg i was full on stress thinking about it. Urghhh, speech and assessment due on the first week back. art i need to do this experiment thingy and maths i need to finish the 7 exercise. Dont want to think about it.
Friday, stay home i guess. Saturday work at 8am-4pm and sunday 6am-12pm. so thats my full schedule for next week. Mum will be back on Monday. wonder how she and my little brother is doing. they probably having fun.
so for the last 3 days i been spending over $500. like omg! what a waste of money but then i make money and u gotta spend it one way or the other. so yeah, i shouldnt be feeling guilty and all that.
anyway, shop at city today and i just hate the people bustling around in a rush. i hate it when they just push pass you in a hurry while u are taking a walk and i hate it when people talk WAY too loud! like shut up man…. and i hate overcrowded train ride. urghh especially at 5pm when you are trying to go home but the train is filled up with people who also want to go home. so i have to wait for two trains before i could get on.
And i hate the daylight saving. instead of being sunny and bright at 530pm, its dark and scary. And when you are walking home from the station, you are just high on alert cos you’re scared that someone will jump out and kidnap you. Urghhh….
well today work at 11am instead of 2pm. manager call and ask if i could work early. since i have nothing to do at home and only working two shifts with less hours i say okay. Also today my mum and younger brother is going to queensland. lucky them. especially my little brother. he gets to go everywhere.
dress in my new work uniform and went to eat with whole family at cabra. i was so full by the end of the meal but it was so delicious. anyway, dad drove me to work and for some reason time seem to go by so slow. maybe cos its not a busy day. it was a fun day. guys at the back are so funny and weird. haha…. home at 6pm.
well, today went to livo westfield at 930am and just shop around. nothing really interesting and to tell the truth i was bored outta my mind. went around and like i dont even know what i wanted.
so i hopped onto the train and went to city instead (townhall). went to kinokuniya and boy oh boy was it so wonderful. went to get my memebership card costing $15 then of to the romance section where i picked up 6 romance books. then to the magazine area and guess what i saw? Gothic Lolita bible magazine and its in english (first volume) and it was the last copy. thank god i saw it. hehe… my hand was getting heavy holding all the books and stuff i bought at livo (priceline…. just shampoo and conditoner and other stuff)
went to pay for my books and use my brand new card. discount 10%= $8 something. wooot….
think of staying at city for a while but it was raining over there…. so went back to cabra…. which somehow is bright and sunny. weird weather.
so yeah.cant wait to read but im so damn starving. Plus i booked an appointment at Ginger Hair at the city area for wednesday. so yeah,,, hopefully i get a really cool haircut but i somehow doubt it.
shopping online is so fun. but waiting for the item to arrive is no fun at all….
so anyway, work for two days, saturday and sunday. 8am-4pm on saturday and 6am-3pm today. days been going by so fast and yay! finally got a new set of uniform. about damn time. worn the same old uniform for the last 3 years!!!! omg.. u must think im unclean or something but cmon i only work for 2 days and then wash it afterwards. so yeah, karah gave me the uniform and like before i was thinking of asking the manager if i could get a new one since mine is getting all torn up and stuff but silly me kept on forgetting. but yay!
it look so new and clean!
so anyway… monday tomrrow. no school and first day of the holiday week. so what should i do? saty home and actually do my work or go out and shop til i drop? i only have $100 in my pocket and in my opinion i dont think thats enough for a whole day of shopping considering i need to eat and stuff…. but then if i stay home i would be bored outta my mind!!!!
so plan is i probably go to parramatta westfield tomorrow since i havent been there for a few years now… i think two years!!! and plus i want to see “border bookshop” heard its really good and stuff.
but then maybe i go to the city tomorrow and go to kinokuniya and spend the whole day there, reading and stuff.
or maybe i just stay home and be a good girl and study
yeah, so many possiblities… which to choose?
tuesday have work at 2pm-6pm. yay for 4 hour shift only.
I am planning to get a new haircut, maybe on wednesday since im getting pay on that day! hmm i wonder how much i have save up already in my ANZ bank? probably go and buy some new clothes. stuff the saving up for car… i think i have to wait till i work full time before i can start thinking of buying a car. considering i have to pay for insurance and fuel i dont think me working at maccas can actually support it.
o.O cant wait for more books to arrived. been buying on ebay and fishpond, like around 10 books or so and so im in the process of waiting. hate waiting for mail.
