year meeting plus school photo tomorow

year meeting today during period 0 and just talk about formal, fundraising and jersey. Oh and school photo is on tomorrow. This year i am buying the photo cause its the last year of high school. The only time i am buying since previous year didnt. hehe… And guess what? its on at period 0, 830am! so have to wake up extra early just to look nice (not really)

So told my friends that i passed and kong was the first to know since i told her yesterday. Belinda is going for her in april and i wish her luck! she will pass i just know it.

SO currently stress. textile thingy is due on thursday!!!! noooOOoo i havent even finish and im getting so stress out cause the written work is so bloody hard. i cant think of words to write or how to make it more better!!! urghhhhhh.

Anyway, dentist appointment at 230pm today so went at 1pm to livo and shop at spotlight! yay! love spotlight. favourite store. bought crafts and magazine and stuff just to experiment and do (although i hardly do any) just buy them cos they cheap or because i think i need them which i know i dont. stupid me but seriosuly they are so beauutiful. Damn wish i could win that $20000 competition. it be a dream come true. urghh no fair no fair.

anyway better go and finish and stop procrastinating. i need inspiration! INSPIRATION!

the joy of passing your driving and getting your P

today went for my P test again. missed out school. Practice at 9am till 10am then went for the test at 1015am. the officer was the same as last time.

Drove for half an hour, came back at around 11am, told me my result and i was like dreading. then tada! You pass!!!! woot. seven mistakes out of 11. not bad, compare to last time where i have 11 mistakes. Anyway, she gave me my P plates thingy, then went to pay for license fee, take photo, wait for 10  mintues then off to home where my driving instructor took me home.

Told dad i didnt pass and he was kinda pissed cos then i have to redo which cost over $200 just to hire car etc. Surprise him that i pass and he was so relieved.

drove to maccas to eat. YAY! freedom of driving myself without supervision. about damn time. Kinda weird not having someone beside you to instruct you.

another day of school

thursday today and was okay. zerris and huong wasnt here since they have excursion. First up was double textile and so we continue with our experiment and stuff. DOuble art afterwards and was pretty okay. Am putting layers of colours and letting the colour run. However since im using this turp thingy it kinda smell. HAnds got really dark cos of black paint and cant seem to really get rid of it.

Lunch and have formal committee meeting thingy. only 10 or less of us in the committee. so this year we are thinking of doing our formal on a cruise however we need to know how big it is to see if it can fit all of us. Bel, SivChing and Tram will go on sunday to investigate.

Maths was next and pretty much was tired. been a long day i guess and everyone was really tired and sleepy. i know i am. Integration was the new topic and its quite confusing.

English-only two girls in class, me and sana. teacher read the book (in the wild) while most us doze off. home at last.

well, been quite edgy the whole day. maybe cos of the test coming closer and closer and im dreading it cos im scared of failing. hate this feeling. My mind just seem like its constantly moving, feel like im overthinking  and i wish i could put a break to it. Im feeling like im having a mental breakdown! urghhh…….. stress go away!!!

all work and no play

so been awhile since i last updated. well, nothing much going on. fail P test… oh welll…… next time i shall pass for sure!!!!! >=[

school, work, school, work…. thats what been happening for the last 4 weeks. havent been shopping lately. my god. i totally need some me time.  maybe tomorrow since got pay today. $167 baby! but nah, shouldnt spend all that money when i need it for school fees, and other stuff that i need to pay off. so i guess thats another week of no spending money on useless stuff.

i really need new books to read. been re-reading old books but since i already read it, the story just doesnt appeal to me. i need a new story, new plot, new romance.

Been interested in all these crafts stuff and i really want to try some. But since i need some materials and i cant use money cant do anything about it.

wednesday today and art was first up. continue with our body of work  and i guess i pretty much am enjoying it. Yay for oil painting. its so beautiful. love painting and colouring. cant believe that some people think that colouring is gay. >=[ colouring is so fun!  so yeah, am falling in love with oil painting and now want to buy it, like a really expensive professional one not those crappy one where the colours are so blerh. the one im using at school have really nice vibrant colours and i love mixing the blue and green. it give this really sea/beachy look to it. soooo…. beautiful. well enough with my love for colours.

after art was maths and just revising and going over homework. two more weeks till maths test and we are doing series and applications. bloody confusing with all these formula to remember. dammit, i must pass!!! or else i will turn emo (well, not literally) i probably cry my eyes out, regret myself for not trying harder but after that i would just turn back to my normal self.

well, free period next and went to library. Huong, tram, kong, zerris, lida and christina all have free period as well so we talk and talk and talk and some do our work. stayed throughout recess then was textile for me, business for zerris while the rest still have free period. (no fair)

ancient was next. lunch then english. so wasnt a bad day

work from 4pm till 8pm. time seem to fly by really fast. Anyway, most of the products from maccas are off the menu (such as McOz burger). Okay so like before when i was serving, these old couples wanted a McOz burger and i told them that we dont sell them anymore. when they heard that we dont sell them anymore they start asking why and stuff, and then turn really angry. they were looking at me with daggers in their face like i was the fault for not having the McOz burgers. gosh heaven. damn people and their stupidity. just because the burger is off the menu you dont have to blame me as if i was the caused for not having the burger. they literally being rude to me and stuff while i was serving them. sigh* when will they learn that im just there working and not the one who delete menu off the board.

Anyway, cant wait for school tomorrow. double textile and double art. YAY! both practical lesson.

mental blockage

dont you just hate it when you have a mental blockage, when you have ideas or know what you want to do and when you actually want to put that in use it just wouldnt flow through? i just despise it and i just wish i could something about it. no matter how hard i try to sleep it off, read, or just do something else then come back to it the mental block would just be there and then i would get so frustrated and angry and just lash out at everything around me.

so yeah, right now suppose to write three essay and its due the end of this week and i really want to finish it and get it over and done with but no matter how hard i try to put words onto paper it just wouldnt make sense. i know the content, i know the story, i know what i want to write but trying to figure out the right words to flow with the next one just blew my mind away.

so much work and its only week 3 of term 1. teachers expect too much from you and with two majors, you need to come up with ways to do both, finding inspirations etc. and although i get to go home most days it just feel like the day just pass by in a flash before i can get started. dammit. just stand still for a moment for crying out loud.

okay, so probably the stress is getting to me already, you know how hsc is looming just ahead and everything just move at such a speed that you feel like your three second behind and when you finally reach the finish line another would just appear.

onto another topic. valentines coming this thursday and our school been selling roses and bears. nothing special i gues plus i wont be here on thursday, even though its the last valentine day for my school life and i never recieved roses from anyone. how sad.

today, wasnt too bad except for morning during art. i was like a bit late but teacher wasnt there. everyone was sitting outside art room and when teacher came and say is the door locked everyone said yes. but in fact it wasnt. teacher got mad, went to front office to get the key, and so we wasted half lesson of art, sitting outside. i went to see if the door was actually locked cos i have this weird feeling that it wasnt and guess what i was right. and so we all looked at each other. and start panicking. very hilarious. everyone was scared of the teacher cos when she get angry she REALLY get angry so i guess everyone was really afraid of her. belinda and geraldine went to tell miss that the door was really open. Thank god she wasnt really mad and stuff.

Sigh, i dont really like art anymore. i mean i like what im doing and stuff but because of the teacher and i being really scared of her cos most of the time you dont know what her mood is like. its like walking on water. never know when you will actually fall. so i guess its pretty much the same feeling. everytime im in class i never feel like i can relax and be myself, i feel so tense that it make my art time really frustrating and not enjoyable. Plus the teacher expect too much from you. like you have to be real good or else…

after school went with huong, tram and kong to cabra and eat. walked around, buy little stuff etc etc. home by 230pm. was so tired and sleepy. went and sleep for 3 hours, watch “so you think you can dance australia” which was okay i guess. just hate it when they get to a really good part then its commercial. like what the? so angry that i scream everytime commercial is on and make me want to chuck the remote at the tv. DAMN YOU COMMERCIAL!

dread art tomorrow. dread thursday. dread friday. dread next week.

renting a locker and a rainy day

woot. finally rent a locker, my first one ever in my whole school life. cost $20 for rent but will give money back,$10 by the end of the year.

Anyway, school today and it was raining. First period was textile, then ancient history then double maths. day seem to pass by very quickly. dreadful weather. dont like when it rain nor hot. just wish the weather was cool and sunny.

chemicals react/pocketful of sunshine

chemicals react by Aly and Aj is such a cool song. just found out yesterday along with pocketful of sunshine by Natasha Bedingfield. Really cool songs and found out when looking at the sims2 website where they sing in simlish language.

Anway! work for two days straight. tiring. this morning was really hectic. some drunk people come at around 7am and complain about the burger saying they want extra eggs in their muffin. However, we didnt charge them for the extra eggs and they didnt say it before the order was done. And so the manager was telling them that if they want the extra eggs then need to pay 50cent or so extra. then they start yelling at us and swearing at us. he goes “at the end of the day the customer is always right!” bullshit. u wish. bloody hell. then his friends like its okay man, stop shouting. at least they were sober unlike the guy who was shouting at our manager.  it was so overwhelming. i just came on at 7am and already drama. Then manger goes do you want the food or not and saying this is what you ordered. and if you want extra or so then just pay extra. but the guy who came back from wherever he went say that it was okay. and so they take the order. goodness me. what the heck? anyway, im quite confused too.

then yeah afterwards, like half an hour or so they apologise again and again. Customer behind was just looking and staring. And a policeman came after the drama just ended. damn. if only he came before when the guy was swearing at us then let see what happen. anyway they were still there but just ate their food and talking. blah blah. so yeh.

busy busy day although it was raining. thank god i wasnt that stressed just annoyed by customers/cars keep coming.

home at 3pm.

so school tomorrow. yay. and home at 1pm so double yay. the only bad day is thursday where no home early and stay back till 315. 7 whole period. whew. but oh well.